I just lost five pages of work on my essay

licking your lips
taking in the momentary pain
as a helpful reminder that
you are still alive

biting your tongue
tasting your own blood to make sure that
it is really your own, because
you are still alive

gritting your teeth
resonating through your skeleton
ready to box with your machine
you are still alive

beating yourself
senseless on the keys on your board in
retaliation for its faults
however, it's quite obvious that

it was you who forgot to save your work